Friday, September 30, 2011

Goodbye, September!

At the beginning of September I told you I was ready for the change the month offered. Now that the month has passed, I'm recalling all of the ways our lives have changed and all of the hopes we still have.

I firmly believe the biggest and best opportunities often come around when we're not looking for them.

I'm also truly at odds with myself here; as a planner by nature, it is tough to not think and hope and plan for what could happen. I am telling myself to be done with the searching my heart can't seem to stop, the reasons being twofold: The more I search for what's next, the more discontent I find myself, and, admittedly, also because a part of me wants so badly to be there that I think not worrying about it might get us there more quickly.

I don't want to wish my life away waiting for the mean time to pass. I don't want the next 20-or-so weeks of just Aaron and I to pass too quickly. I want to savor all of the time we have now, but I still can't keep myself from the next steps.

Do you do the same thing?

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