Trying to decide on weddin' shoes. Our colors are green, gold and dark brown, and I would love to have something gold and fabulous, like these J. Crew heels. (Realistically priced, of course.)

It irritates me that so much of what I am writing about lately is buying things. I don't like that as a motif in my life, and I know that when marriage sets in, I will be much more well-served if I have practiced a lifestyle of un-thinking buying beforehand. My fiance is NOT a spender. And I shouldn't be, but I love things. I inherited it from my mother. However, I have not yet cultivated her prowess for frugality. Starting tomorrow? (I say tomorrow only because it's 45 minutes away and I have no intention of purchasing anything at this time.)
Also, for college students who are getting married, it's a LOT different to read these "how-to" marriage books. Specifically the budgeting chapters. Why? Because they depend so much on constructing a budget around the fixed income that most people (employed, of course) recieve. I do not fall in to that category, unless you count my student position at the U. A's a grad student putting in 13 hour days, 7 days a week, so it will fall on my shoulders to be the breadwinner until he finishes his MFA in 2011. Terrified much? You bet I am. We know we will implement a budget, but the hypotheticals leave us paralyzed. "Practicing" budgeting seems like an exercise in futility until we know what our situation will be when we are really married. *Also scary, the fact that neither of us can guarantee I will have a job when I move down south. This, understandably, was my parents' greatest concern in our decision to get married... And it's a prayer, every night, that there will be something to cover our bills for me. I'm trusting (because I have no other choice). So keep us in your prayers.
...So I guess I want to watch shows about vampires because they take my mind away from the fact that in ninety days I'm going to need a job capable of sustaining myself and a very hungry boy. I want vampires. I need God.
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